Valentine's Day

For a single person Valentine's Day is one of the most dreaded holiday's!!! You may not hear a lot of single people say this but trust me it's true.  Halfway through January we start seeing splashes of red heart balloons and and chocolate hearts.  As soon as February hits, Valentine paraphanelia is every where reminding a single person just how single they truly are.  

I learned a long time ago to plan ahead.  I never wanted to be alone and bored on Valentine's Day.  It gives your mind too much time to wander into danger zones.  You may start to think back to past relationships wondering if you should have stayed in them...at least you'd have a Valentine...right?

No!!! 

Over the past years I've made sure that I had some type of dinner plans or party planned.  This ensured that I had a wonderful Valentine's Day and memories that I wasn't ashamed to share and think about later.

Well this year with a new baby, Valentine's Day wasn't the first thing on my mind. It really sneaked up on me.  That never happens!!!  But it was okay.

Valentine's Day is a day that we show love to a special person in our life.  Usually this is a boyfriend/girlfriend, spouse, fiance, crush...etc.  I know people like to say family, friends, kids...but honestly we all know that this day is reserved for a special someone.

I always thought that if I didn't have this day planned out from sunrise to sunset I would allow sad feelings, and crazy thoughts to surface but it honestly wasn't like that.

The day after Valentine's Day when I had a moment to reflect I realized something.  I am loved.  I am loved by God.  It is a love so pure and true that I almost don't have words to describe it.  I am so grateful for this love and honestly I cannot imagine life without it.  

God loves me soooo much that He has forgiven and forgotten about past wrongs.  He's healed my broken spirit.  I could be bitter.  I could be sad.  But I am not.  I am quietly happy.  I'm not the shout it from the roof top, over the moon, falling in love happy.  I am peaceful, I am content, I am steady.  I am sure of His love and that's something I've never been sure about with anyone on this earth.

And for that, I am grateful.